things may seem impossible.... unable to achive.... very...
distant for me right now...
if only things weren't so complicated.... if only things had been
in control....
feelings are not things that can be easily controlled as i've found
out, locked away, for quite some time... i thought to myself...
that i may not love again.... yet.. this feeling, seeps into my
heart, thawing it from it's frozen state..
but.... even as it thaws... my reluctance takes over... and i am
filled with decisions to make... what path i shld take, or is it
worth it....?
worth it or not, i dun think it matters, what matters most is that
i'm happy with the situtation that i'm in... and even though she
doesn't noe... i'm ok with it.... efforts placed in, i am trying...
though not good enuf, but at least i'm trying to like....
heart feels heavy, heavier than that when it's thawed... perhaps
it's the burden i keep within me, waiting to explode... i might juz
let the whole world noe, and be ridiculed....
yet.... for the sake of her... i'll keep mum abt it... and i'll juz
carry on being the way i am.... for... distance, is what makes the
yearning feeling stronger.... and makes me feel....
perhaps she's not the one for me, but at least, she can be the one
who makes me feel.... i believe... i might have a chance to love
again... who noes???
