Its hard to trust God. I am serving God faithfully in my church.
I am a musician, backup singer and (recently) worship leader too. I
love to serve God cos i feel that He deserves it.
However more than half a year ago i am already getting cold.I have
been taken out from worshp leading.I don't trust God as much as as
before. I can trust God in alot of things really.
But in the area of relationships, i can't. I like this girl in my
church and i'm sure she is the best for me, but why did things do
not work out the way it should be for me? I can only see
uncertainty in my future. I'm going NS soon. Don't think i will
have the time to know more friends and expand my circle during that
time. So i am disillusioned. 
And because of this my faith in God is shaken terribly. I no longer
have the passion to worship. I can only fulfill my responsibilites
in church as duties that i have to do. Not because i truly want to
do it out of my passion anymore. Why? WHy? wHY?
