to those who kept asking if i'm les or not,
it is for you to judge and not for me to care. seriously i
don't care if i'm les or not. the most pressing problem here is
about how i can control my feelings for my best friend and how not
to ruin this extremely precious friendship bond.
to Isis
i see. from what i have tried so far, is that i have already
tried to talk to more of my friends recently instead of not
contacting them. i make effort to msg them of what's happening in
my life and i bother to chat with them on msn more often. i just
hope that perhaps by socialising more, i can figure out what is my
true feelings for my best friend.
to VL
I don't see that there is a need for me to see a doctor, unless
you are trying to say that i have mental problems or whatsoever.
and about me being straight or not, even i don't
have the answer. and lastly, i didn't like more than 1 girl at a
time. i said i had feelings for let's say 2-3 girls in the past.
now my best friend is one of them and she is the one who i had the
strongest feeling amongst the rest.
to tinuviel07
not sure what ur comment towards VL means but somehow i tik u're
thinking at the same wavelength as me.
to CrabbyShaSha
haha thanks for ur support and encouragement, really appreciate
it. and i can't distance myself away from her cos i really do hope
to be friends with her for many many years to come. however, the
only thing i can do is to try not to be overly-nice to her
anymore.
to Beyond religion
wow you're quite smart. yes i'm only 18 this year. i also
wondered if other people of my age experience this issue the same
way as i did. However i don't seem to find anyone else within my
social circle. This of course makes me feel even worst, as if i'm
doomed to be on the road to lesbianism. because i really hope to be
straight as my family and friends will definitely not accept me
being not straight. and thanks for reminding me that i'm still
young and shouldn't bother myself too much about the future. But
just to let u know that i've been like this for the past 3 years,
so i don't know how much longer my feelings will start to fade.