Hi guys, I was away for work past few days and now finally have
time to post. Ok yes i know it is hurting that she is keeping her
options open, I know that i am the one who is not in control. It is
painful that this is happening to me the second time and I am still
thinking of it til now. However, the last time it happened to me, I
was overseas and I couldnt prevent it. Painful but I got over after
1 year. Now my second relationship of 2 years also faces the same
problem.
I think it is inevitable that gals will always have suitors no
matter which country we go. As long as there are human beings,
social interaction is bound to happen. After which feelings
developed and one thing leads to another. etc etc. We humans are
complexed animals because of our feelings. If we are devoid of it
than hey we can become a beast.
I am giving this relationship a chance because I have put in lots
of effort to maintain it and I see it a waste just to let it go. I
still have feelings for my girl even though she is keeping her
options open. But there is a reason to it, my career is not
establish and I am going to concentrate on my studies next year,
any girl will feel insecure even if she loves you very much, this
is Singapore and our society has brought us up as such. I dont
blame her but myself cause we are at a different path in our life
and I was the one who initated this relationship.
I dont know what the future has install for us, nobody knows maybe
she will just leave me for another better guy or maybe she will
still be there for me til death do us part. Either way, I have
prepared mentally. If she leaves for another guy than I know that
she is not the one for me. If she stays than I can understand her
love for me better but it doesnt end there effort have to be
consistent from both party to maintain a relationship.
I will never be like last time when things go against my way and I
do harm to myself. I realized that it is pointless but rather I
will let nature take its cause and dont be too hard on myself if
things turn against me. I have gone through a low point in my life
the past week and now the only way is up. just like the stock
market, there will always be either a bull or a bear run and
sometimes the occasional horizontal. But hey this is life, I will
embrace it with happiness need to release my sadness. God bless all
of you.
