i am tryin. but its really too stupid of me to put in so much
love into my first ever relationship. she is my first serious gf,
and i simply love her too much that sometimes i wonder if i really
know what i am doin?
i knw, the standard things will be like, goin for a jog, keep
myself occupied.
but whenever i woke up frm my bed, the first thing in my mind is
HER. Whenever i slp, i always dreamt we are back together. The
memories that i had with her. its everywhere. its always comin
back.
even when i am typin this, my head and is her.
i dun know y i am harbourin hopes of her returnin to me. Maybe is
becoz of somethings she said that gave me a little hope.
She told me, maybe after NS, when i am more mature, we might still
be together. all she wan now is to have fun and be alone. BUT WHERE
on earth, will someone that is tryin to be ALONE still go to clubs?
still go out with tat guy every nw and then ? Is tat what she
really mean by being alone ?
i dun know, but somehow i still think i need serious help now. I
had lost so much weight. Frm 64kg to a mere 56kg in like a
week.
